My hosting fees are coming due. I enjoy writing this blog, but with all the juggling, I have to decide if it’s worth it. I’m not sure what either “it” refers to in that sentence.
Is the output worth the income? Well duh. I expend a lot of energy here, and my input is $0.00. So that’s easy. No.
Is the money spent worth the money coming in? Welllllll a year ago that answer was no, because I spent time that could be spent freelancing on writing, so I lost money. But that’s not really true now because mostly, I write while out with the nutjob puppy in the mornings, so if I’m not writing, this time would be spent looking up people I don’t know on Facebook or seeking out more and more maps of COVID-19. I can’t work while wandering around my yard in the dark. So I’m not losing money here, unless you count the couple of minutes it takes to clean things up when I am about to publish. So…is $0 worth more than $0?
Is the energy out worth the energy in? Maybe? I’ve learned a lot about myself and interacted with others, and I have a much, much clearer picture of the whole picture than I used to. So I’ve expended a lot of energy but gained a lot, too.
So on the “lose” side, I have lost almost no money but a considerable amount of energy. On the “gain” side, I’ve gained no money but a considerable amount of energy.
Which is why the hosting fees seem like a big deal. It’s a clear loss, when everything else is a wash. And yet, when the kids say “can we do a camp for $200?” it seems like not a big deal. The hosting fees are not really that much of a loss.
I started writing this as an announcement, a declaration. Now I’m not so sure. I’ve got a few days to figure it out still. It’s a cliffhanger!